A guy in my class always says "WOOOOW" out loud

HEY

To all of my 9 followers who read my blog.

Thanks for being such dedicated supporters!!!

I have some sad news though.

I am putting this blog to SLEEP/HIBERNATION for at least the next year if not longer (if I can afford to maintain a proper website!)

If you do not know yet...I've moved on. It wasn't you, it was me.

BLOGSPOT has been one of my most helpful and utilized online social tools for me to let the WORLD know what I'm doing or what my random circus thoughts are.

But...times change and for me, I had to snap up a good deal to buy rights to....*drum roll*

www.mikeytai.com

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So now you all can bookmark that site and check in regularly to read, watch, and kill time over while you're procrastinating from any real work you need to do.

It's a new chapter of life. Gotta step my game up.

(My paranoia from learning cyber law made me realise if I don't buy my name now, someone else will and sell it to me for millions which in my regret will pay if I ever had to. Not that I ever would have millions)

Dealing with reality

I write this post because it's late, and I am tackling anxiety. So this is my release.

In a few days we're heading to Taiwan. There's a big team - 9 ppl - both girls and guys and it'll be a tough gig taking care of so many people. Pray for unity - coz I know this will be an issue that will arise on the trip. Yes this makes me anxious.

In January, I'm making the move to head to the big city where I will be out of my element, serving in a new church, with new people, without my friends around and without a doubt, the issue of loneliness will arise. Yes, this makes me anxious too. A friend who made the move recently told me that it's one of the biggest issues he struggles with as there is less 'hanging out' time in Sydney as everyone is too busy to hang out. I don't know if this will be an issue with me - I don't hang out much any more. But, as sad as it may sound, I will miss my friends. Loneliness. Will I be able to handle it? The truth of the matter is, from speaking with friends that have done the same, you lose contact and connection with friends when you move away. The reality is, you can't be as close if you're physically distant from one another. There is less effort made to pick up the phone and send a text, less effort made to call the other person to chat because both are 'too busy', and obviously, impossible to 'hang out' with them physically as distance will separate. Even an email will be rare. Hanging out is what it's all about that keeps friends close. Being able to open up, share, spend quality time with - that's how friends are close. How will my friendships with people in B-vegas be maintained if I'm down south?

My theme song will be Green Day's..."I walk a lonely road the only one I've ever known..." (I'm going to go buy some black skinny jeans and pierce a black lip ring and grow my hair to cover my eyes)

Ok, God will take away all my anxieties so no need to be anxious about TW or the big move. And....honestly I don't think I will be lonely - we all know why.

But, I'll miss you guys?

Grease Lightning

Watched Grease last night coz was with a friend who had never ever watched it before. Shock. I know. Watching it though made me realise how high school is ALL about peer pressure and your image. It also made me realise how much we'd change for someone else - I mean, Danny was like a gangster TBIRD and wanted to turn into a jock to get his woman. The lengths we go to to get a girl? Maybe. I know guys who wouldn't change a thing about themselves and are content the way they are. I guess they just need to meet a girl who would make them want to change. I mean change in a good way too - stepping up their game and being more of a man with responsibility and well at the least, with some gentleman-like manners.

Anyways. I've been accepted to enrol into SMBC next year! (Sydney Missionary Bible College) Why'd I choose it? Some of my most respected older christian brothers and sisters attended there and have been a huge influence on me and my growth. I wouldn't be here without them. Why'd I choose Sydney? Long ago, I always wanted to move to Sydney for a bit of a seachange - out of my comfort zone, away from my p's, to get a bit of independence etc. Now I can. And of course, there are a couple other reasons why...

So big changes next year. I've also got a secret for you. DoJ is leaving the Mind of a Skitz to attend to a proper website. The domain name has been bought already. Need to obtain some webhosting and will get some help for web design. But am looking forward to posting on my own website soon! Will keep you posted until then :)

In the meantime, keep updated on the cccbtaiwan.blogspot.com site for all mission related adventures happening in Dec with me and my team.

If I could change the world.

Last day of work yesterday (now unemployed).

Taiwan mission in December.

Sydney in January (to be a student again).

Recording cover songs with Tony Dean.

Catching up with people. Dealing with difficult ones.

Helping to prepare for YF next year.

Packing and cleaning up my gear for the move.

Selling on ebay/gumtree.

Clean start next year. New website?

Enjoy.

Sleeping to dream.

Years ago, I started this blog to record my dreams. I was too lazy to use pen and paper so I would wake up and jump on my computer before I ate breakfast, before I went to uni and even before I took my morning dump. Here are my dreams from last night….

First dream: I remember being in a mixed dorm room with YF and it was almost midnight but I wasn't bunked there. I had a separate room in a completely separate building and I was all alone there. So I came to this dorm room and everyone was getting into bed (at least a dozen people!) and I was lonely and looking to play so I wanted to steal Licious away. He was obviously reluctant and told me about some game he wanted to watch. So he snuck out with me and wanted to go to the mens toilets which happened to be next door. It was dank dark and the lights were flickering. Shadows were creeping all over the bathroom and as I stood at the sinks, I couldn't see past the cubicles coz it was too dark. Licious disappeared in the shadows as I washed up. I called out to him to hurry up and there was no answer…I went to the closest cubicle and there was a rope tied to the door and a deep black hole. I couldn’t see where it went it was just black. I shouted out "LICIOUS!!!"

No reply. I started pulling on this rope and I could hear some grunting. I pulled him back up and he asked me why I did that. He said he was watching the game. The hole had taken him to Western Australia where there was an AFL match being played.

Second dream: I was in a parking lot outside a gigantic shopping centre. Found this dodgy park next to some construction site. Egghead was with me as well as Licious and Dr Wong. We had two expired entertainment books. Useless. It was raining. We were parked on the far end of one of the 'wings' of the shopping centre. So we trudged through the rain and nearly got run over a couple of times by crazy cars in the carpark. Made it to the escalators undercover. Went up. It then got dark all around us. 4pm. The shopping centre was closing but we were being welcomed in by security. There was one security guard on the first level - a nice elderly gentleman and he said "God be with you". I hesitated and just nodded and smiled. We went up to the second level and still had not yet reached the shopping centre area. We had to go through another security gate which an elderly lady was minding. The same greeting "God be with you". I responded this time with a smile and said "God bless".

Finally, we made it into the shopping centre and the food court area. It was gigantic. But although the tables still had heaps of people lingering around, the lights wre turning off slowly and the takeaway stores were closing and putting their fences down. Licious got ahead of us because he wanted to see some shops. I remember seeing a giant woman mannequin who had giant man hands. I don't know what they were trying to sell. But it freaked me out. I saw Licious riding escalators to the 3rd and 4th floors leaving me and Dr Wong behind. The fences started closing us off. One by one lights were turning off and the stores were closing all around us. Noone else was around. We called out "LICIOUS!!" and he was out of sight! And this is where it ends.

We look up, Licious is on the floor above leaning over the railing looking down on us. A single droplet of drool leaves his mouth, and the camera angle changes as I follow the droplet down from his lips falling on to the glasses of the unsuspecting Dr Wong below. Then I wake up.

I wanna grow old with you

There are lots of people around me who are getting married. I'm not one of them - sad face.

Every wedding I go to, I sit in the ceremony thinking, what would I say for my vows? What kind of music is the bride going to walk down the aisle to? Who is going to be my groomsmen? Who...when..where..

I sound like a girl.

In the past year - I was a best man, I was a wedding car driver, I was a groomsman, and tomorrow again I'll be a chauffeur as well as a prayer person at the ceremony. I think in about a month I'll be an usher for that one. Exciting. But ... when is mine?

My special lady said to me that she thinks there'll be many more speeches for me to do at weddings for lots of my mates that will be getting hitched in the future (u know who u are). Even if they haven't got a special one for themselves yet we all have faith that God has someone prepared for them ;) But will I have run out of things to say at them?

The first speech was as best man - and for my best mate so that shouldve been easy right? No. How do I express the funny stories of a conservative young straight asian guy? With much difficulty! All the funny stories usually involved ME doing something stupid. Getting up in front of a church to preach is pretty nerve-racking, but to get in front of a crowd at a wedding to make a speech hoping people will laugh at your jokes that only you find mildly humourous made me want to vomit up the butterflies in my stomach. The speech I did for my dear friends recently was just as worse. I didn't expect anything from a mixed audience of adults and young people, white and asian. Who would find anything I say funny? I was shaking, no glasses on so the words were blurry, and the lighting was really bad too and to save paper and fit my speech on one a4 page, i made the font size 10. Smart idea (at the time)! Regardless, it went surprisingly well and although I promised the bride a standing ovation, I didn't quite get it but at least I got a couple of hugs from the married couple! Trying to get people to laugh at a wedding is the hardest thing ever. It's almost as nerve-racking as being the bride and groom on the big day itself.

I am going to sing this song for the girl i'm gonna marry:

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you


Yes, I am 'borrowing' it from the wedding singer.

Anyways, gotta write a prayer now. May God be glorified :)

Is it just me...or are all our eyes in this photo really really really small?

Lovin tha world. World?

Did you know the Bible gives an example of a dude who was a fellow worker for the Gospel message but loved the world too much and left his ministry?

A guy called Demas worked alongside Paul, Luke, and Timothy (Col4:14, Philemon 1:24) but then left Timothy (2Tim4:10) because he loved the world.

A biblical example of someone who worked alongside disciples of Christ and was one himself, but was tempted by the world and left God to chase after his own sinful desires.

(I will use sex as an example because sex sells) This is the challenge we face as Christians surrounded in a 21st century society where it's ok to watch MA (sometimes even PG) rated movies that are full of pervetedness, fornication and adultery and we 'enjoy' it and call it entertainment. We then call people who believe it to be too strict - 'legalists' - because they don't know how to enjoy entertainment. We have become so immune to it, so 21st century minded instead of Jesus minded that we forget that these things OFFEND God. When we start participating and enjoying the things that offend God we can potentially become enemies of God.

The world thinks us crazy that we make a deal about things like gossip, having a 'good' time (in the sense of sex and booze), and that we abstain from such 'normal' worldly living. Well we have a God who is holy and perfect. We have a God who actually created things like sex and even humour yet by our sinfulness as humans what was originally straight has been made crooked and twisted. Sex is a great thing in the confines of marriage - it's to be enjoyed. But the world tells us otherwise and so thus the temptation exists and so sin entails.

So the big question I am ending this post abruptly with is....who is your God? Who rules over your life?